Burning wih the flame bright and red
The moth paid the price for going too close to the tempting light ,
Do still wonder about that night? Or was it just another silly night ?
Like the moth drawn to the flame it was the greed that got us played
It is one of the deadly sins ,waiting for the moment to strike on our vulnerable minds just like the tides luring you deep inside.
Passion was the mask ,maybe lust played his role right by masking a fellow sin from our naked eyes
“Time will heal” really ? Will you ever just forget how it feels?to sit and wonder about all those things you now want to forget, all the quickened heartbeats that you felt with just a mention .Do you really wanna forget?maybe we just want to trick our minds into thinking that we’ve forgotten and how good it felt to forget.
It’s like quicksand with every effort we keep sinking that’s how it is when you try to forget it all you are actually thinking about all of it again
Don’t you ?every time you tell your self to not remember it you actually recall all of it. It’s how vulnerability works
We need to accept than forget. Need to accept that how much better it is to let go and stay still too many efforts can just end up torturing us maybe standing still and basking in the fact that it’s over is what we need
This is quicksand!stand still and see what will happen accept it for once and you’ll be done .
The dirty window sill was still the same
broken edges and faded paint
maybe somethings never change.
Over a decade ago this static room
was all we had with memories still intact
small things and all the tiny details
this room couldn’t forget them
from the mischiefs and friendly banter
to the fights and falling asleep at night
these walls kept us tucked in tight
now all I see is lost light why didn’t
we bother holding on tight ?
why did we ever let this go ?
can we ever recover the lost hope?
Fast forward it to when this all ends
fast forward to when the night won’t end with a sour note and lost thoughts
to when the stars won’t weep
to when the light won’t leave
to when the fall is finally over
to when the darkness won’t last longer
so let’s fast forward it when we don’t mind falling and getting up still laughing for life
fast forward it to when we’ll get over this mess
fast forward it to my heaven a safe place where I can reside
a place my where my eyes won’t weep for all things things I couldn’t reach
fast forward it to when the days are of light when only brightness is the life where we don’t fall on our knees for love
fast forward it to the days that I will call mine
fast forward it to the days when I can live
fast forward it to the days of my flight and morning light
Standing at the dead end
I considered the things behind
looking over my shoulder and then
to the pages still clutched in my hand
my mind couldn’t fathom this urge
to run back to the place I left behind
this was a battle I lost ages ago
my mind still lingered on the scene
and my heart felt a pang of conscience
after all the culprit was just half at fault
this end was all I sought
and still my mind fought
these things weren’t in his logical pot
some matters don’t bother him
maybe defeat is what he fears
maybe the end is actually near
isn’t that what we all fear??
I used to be power and authority
I used to be the dominant one.
You couldn’t handle it
so now I’m the other one
Kept they say
home wrecker ,Yes I’m the one
Your puppet to play with every night and hide in morning light
I’m the vicious one
I’m the sinner
I’m the succubus
not the dominant one
I opened the door and quietly sneaked in he wasn’t there on the couch waiting like always and I’m glad he wasn’t there to see his faithful wife in a short LBD covered in filth just like him after all it was the same sin, they were both sinner Satan and Lucifer .The bedroom lights were on and I could see the messed up sheets and used towels the same sight every night the obvious activity visible what an irony sinner was pointing out another’s sin, it still hurts like a bitch.Liar we both were serial liars if that’s a thing and so lied again dinner with the investors was perfect just like ‘ I left office early baby ‘was perfectly imperfect.
I turned the baby monitor on and replayed the noon clip my heart lurched my baby was fast asleep with her kiki cat but the nanny wasn’t nor was husband .The same room same people different souls one pure and another impure , I could see his hand moving down her back and knew it was enough turned it off and went to the room Mr Husband was fast asleep in his suit and I couldn’t stop my giggle ‘what a fool’my conscious chuckled and my heart wept so I moved forward to wards the centre of my universe sleeping with kiki like an angle in the world of fallen angles so pure and bright like the morning light
I kissed her and wept for all that we lost and for the remaining salvage .
After all we chose our sins.
wrote for TTT
“Could you just move this please?”
I looked up towards the source of this voice and fuck I dropped the stack looking into the same chocolate brown and my heart sank.
“Ma’am are you okay ?”
I ran… my stack was on the floor pages all over I tried to pick them up
“Let me help you !”
“No !don’t fucking touch it” I exclaimed lowering my baseball cap
This can’t be I need to run .So I did picking up whatever I could and dropping pages all over
“Wait your pages !Shit ”
I heard as the door closed and I exhaled ,this can’t be and it shouldn’t be after all these years and my world was about to shatter yet again.
‘This is why you keep running you can’t stop!’ my subconscious chided me.How can I be so careless I knew coming back was a big mistake and still I took this chance why ?
‘Because you wanted to collide again’my subconscious was a bitch ,one true bitch and after this episode I can’t bare another second in this place I need to get out before they catch me.
I looked back through the window and couldn’t help but smile .
It was worth it and I knew it.
The chocolate brown still tugged my heart strings and it hurt like a bitch
Taking a deep breath and gathering my wits and I moved towards the rental and away..faraway to a place .
Someday that’s when we meet again some day.
A lonely night
when the stars weren’t bright
you crept in my mind like
the morning light that shines bright
a dark thought kept looming
you were right about the light
it wasn’t dark nor was it bright
just a lonely night when the
stars didn’t shine
my mind didn’t like the gloomy night
a simple thought mixed with your light
kept me up at in this lonely night
because the stars didn’t shine
Somewhere between the lines
you were different for your kind
and I had a few things in mind
some different around the blurred lines
for the change that we craved and
a longing that wasn’t actually grave
we fought for the same spot so that
the rhythm wasn’t lost
the hope was endless
but we were nearly hopeless
the darkness and the ray of hope
we ran parallel hence never crossed
if we did cross! it would be a lost cause
for the parallel in our thoughts
the ends were never sought.
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